Beans, Rice and Tortillas. A Personal Tale.

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Some nights you just want to have something simple, something familiar. Something that warms the soul. For me, that dish is beans and rice with fresh tortillas on the side.

I missed National Bean Day. It was on January 06th! It was on my blogging and calendar and I totally spaced. I love charro and refried beans. Whether they’re dehydrated in a bag or I soak them and cook them slowly myself. Who can resist EL FRIJOLE! If I wanted, I could probably make that into some sort of book character…

I digress.

I was raised by the white side (Mom’s) of my family. I was raised by my grandparents, who I call Nanny and Papa. I love them to death. But food wise I felt very cheated. My Nanny wasn’t too much of a cook but was an awesome baker. She did teach me to make a good pot of beans. At least the basics of soaking and whatnot. I have memories of running past the pressure cooker as the lid shook violently. I also remember a time or two when my Nanny’s beans exploded and ended up all over the ceiling. The stains are still there to this day.

When I was a very young girl, I spent a lot of time with my dad’s sister, my Tia Janie, bless her soul! She made the best food and her house always smelled heavenly. Hand made food and purple Fabuloso. I always wanted to make Mexican food like her. I watched her diligently roll out tortillas. When I roll them, I can never get them even. My sweet companion Cory gifted me this when we started dating. I use it to make tortilla making a breeze!

As I grew older, I grew apart from my extended family. Although when I was a teenager and even a young adult I don’t think I realized it was my mental illness that caused me to not have close relationships with people. It’s only in the last few years that I’ve been able to admit to myself that my mental illness has had disastrous consequences in concern to my personal relationships. I can’t keep up with people to save my life!

That’s what I truly love about food. It brings people together and promotes healing. When we heal, our ancestors heal!


I know it seems ridiculous but I had what I’m going call a food identity crisis. When I moved out at the age of 18, I had a friend who taught me how to make authentic Mexican rice. I became obsessed! I wanted to feel more connected with my Mexican heritage but had too much pride to talk to my family. So instead I made Mexican rice once a week for a year. Practice makes perfect, I kept telling myself. I wanted the seasoning to balance out perfectly. I was looking for that special taste. I feel like I’m finally ready to share that with others. I’ve had so many people on Instagram ask me for my recipe and I can never put enough thoughts together to actually respond to anyone. It’s pathetic, really. I’m hoping blogging helps me in that area and others too!

Apparently, there’s a National Fried Rice day but no Mexican Rice Day. So here we are! An authentic Mexican rice recipe, Happy Very Merry Un-Rice Day! To you? To me! I hope you sang that 🙂

I only make my rice in this one pan. It’s a stainless steel saucepan that I got at Albertson’s with collectible coupons. I can’t remember the exact promotion as it was years ago. I haven’t tried using this recipe any other way but I’m sure you could adapt it to your needs.

Thank you so much for reading if you’ve gotten this far!

Brittney Shae, xoxo.

(Edit: I still haven’t made rice for this blog post but I have every intention of doing so. Sometimes we just have to go with things even when they aren’t perfect; lest they never get posted.

Goodbye, 2018.

It’s as if 2018 came and slapped me and went- just like that. All that quickly. I’ve learned so much about myself and other people. I was in the darkest depths of despair at the beginning of the year with PTSD. I can’t even fathom a time when I’m as mentally unwell as I was then. As physically sick as PTSD and extreme anxiety would have me. Who knew?

As for resolutions. I want to baby my blog. I want to share with you. I want to work through things via my thoughts and images. My resolution is to post two food blogs a week. Seems manageable, right?

Here’s to 2019.

5 Relaxing Airbnb’s To Stay At In New Mexico

Airbnb is a really awesome online marketplace for unique places to lodge. From entire houses to individual rooms, airstream campers and treehouses; you can find just about any sort of lodging. It’s a great opportunity to be able to make memories with your loved ones. Who really wants to stay in a boring hotel room anyways? Here’s five unique Airbnb places to stay in New Mexico.

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Rent an entire yurt for you and a loved one! Or hey, go enjoy some alone time. Whatever floats your boat. Enjoy the beauty of the Cibola Forest on Carol and Rob’s ranch. The surrounding area is beautiful and there is much to explore! $85/nightly

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What an awesome concept for a house. Earthships are typically completely “off grid” and require no utilities from anywhere. It’s a completely self contained house. Earthships unique in structure as well. This is definitely something to put on your bucket list. Room for the entire family! $125/nightly

Sam Cabin at Bottle House — Ruidoso, New Mexico Screen Shot 2018-12-29 at 3.20.57 PM

Weekend get away in the Lincoln National Forest. Perfect for couples who want to stargaze and enjoy a hot tub. Full kitchen. In Ruidoso you could also enjoy horseback riding, casinos, and an awesome downtown area. $125/nightly

Private Room w/ Loft & Sky Lights — Albuquerque, New Mexico Screen Shot 2018-12-29 at 3.20.20 PM

Enjoy staying at an urban homestead in the 505. Just around the corner from restaurants, supermarket and a bus stop. This is a private room in a home with it’s own entrance. Can fit up to four but would be lovely for a couple getaway. $45/nightly

Garden of the Goddess Retreat, Santa Fe, New Mexico Screen Shot 2018-12-29 at 3.25.40 PM  

This is an amazing example of Southwestern style. A beautiful guesthouse awaits you. It is shaded by elm trees in the middle of the retreat center compound and surrounded by 33 amazing acres of gardens and rock outcroppings

7 Intense Movies About Mental Illness That You Need To Watch

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Here’s a shortlist of intense cult classics and soon to be cult classic movies on mental illness.

Psycho (1960)


Split (2016)

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Shutter Island (2010)


Mommie Dearest (1981)


Girl, Interrupted (1999)


A Beautiful Mind (2001)


Secret Window (2004)